Rachel's Psalm

Let me begin by saying this is not mine, although it'd be awesome if it were. I really like it, so I thought I'd share it with you. Give it a ponder.

A wandering heart within me dwells,
Apt to gaze afar from Thee.
Lascivious want builds and wells,
To steer this ship from Calvary.

Far off course, tossed by waves
This vessel battered by trials.
Apathy replaces former craves,
Acceptance replaced by denials.

O bright Star, guide my path
Lead me not out to sea.
O Compass of my staff,
Rein this ship back to Thee.

For I cannot bear this solace,
Hell apart from Thy presence.
Emptiness, greed, envy and malice
This migrant rewards as presents.

I want to long after You,
I feel You oh so near.
But this world confuses what’s true
With lies my flesh holds dear.

My thoughts scatter from your Word
And embrace the sordid and sundry.
I forget that which I had heard
To be left in this desolate quandary.

As You promised, forsake me not
Though I so willingly fall awry.
Though Thy truths my heart forgot,
Leave me not in sin to die.

For Thou hast given Thine self as man
Crucified for no crime of Thine own.
That I may one day before You stand
As untarnished as Your throne.

How undeserving and wretched am I,
How depraved and vile.
To audaciously scorn and deny
This gift so unselfish and worthwhile.

How do I reconcile this conflict within?
Oh, my heart cries out in despair!
The more I seek you, the more I see sin!
Oh, save me from this devilish snare!

I yearn to be formed into a woman of You
and fulfill the desires of Your heart.
Yet the further I delve into this Truth
The further from it I seem to depart.

Why must I wander? Why must I stray?
My true self desires to conform!
Yet the world is overbearing my heart each day
Casting this ship into the storm.


-D*sire